Being sick is still okay.

Sunday I decided to get rid of an old wooden playground set that we installed in our backyard 20 years ago. The wood was rotting and the whole thing was unstable. No one has played on it in years.

I began cutting the wood down so I could fit it in the back of my truck to take to the dump. I noticed while doing so that I started having a hard time breathing. Then before I got smart enough to realize I should be wearing a mask as I was cutting I took a deep breath and I inhaled something that I knew wasn’t right. It was some kind of mold spores.

The next morning I woke up with a temperature of 101 degrees, my chest was full of fluid and I couldn’t stop coughing. Fortunately, I was off on Monday and Tuesday of this week so I knew I would have time to recover to get back to work today. That didn’t work out like I planned because I am in no shape to go back to work.

The point of me telling you this is not for sympathy. The reason why I am writing about this today is that I wanted to talk about the reactions I got when I told people I wasn’t feeling well.

In today’s world being sick especially with the symptoms I have everyone is concerned that you might have COVID-19. Even though I know exactly how it happened I still am being questioned if I got tested, need to get tested, or plan on getting tested for the coronavirus. The same thing happened when my allergies flared up several months ago after cutting down a bunch of dry grass for two days. It was asked, “Are you sure it’s allergies?”

I understand that some people are hypersensitive about COVID-19 and there is a lot of paranoia out there. While I don’t wish to share my thoughts on the pandemic I will just say I am not one of those people. Sometimes having allergies is just having allergies. Sometimes getting an infection from doing something stupid like cutting moldy wood without a mask is just an infection. Not everything is related to coronavirus.

We get sick. We’re human. Don’t panic. It’s okay.

Negative on being negative

Honestly, it’s been a bad day for me today. I received some bad news that is going to impact me and my family for a while financially. I cannot change it. I can’t fix it. It is what it is.

I could sit and let the bad news, the negativity consume me. In the distant past, I would have used it as an excuse to get intoxicated. I handle it differently now. I seek out positivity when surrounded by negativity. In my search for positivity today I found the following and thought it was worthy of a share. Enjoy.

Bill Watterson, creator of Calvin and Hobbes, in a commencement speech to Kenyon College on pursuing what matters:

Creating a life that reflects your values and satisfies your soul is a rare achievement. In a culture that relentlessly promotes avarice and excess as the good life, a person happy doing his own work is usually considered an eccentric, if not a subversive. Ambition is only understood if it’s to rise to the top of some imaginary ladder of success. Someone who takes an undemanding job because it affords him the time to pursue other interests and activities is considered a flake. A person who abandons a career in order to stay home and raise children is considered not to be living up to his potential — as if a job title and salary are the sole measure of human worth.

You’ll be told in a hundred ways, some subtle and some not, to keep climbing, and never be satisfied with where you are, who you are, and what you’re doing. There are a million ways to sell yourself out, and I guarantee you’ll hear about them.

To invent your own life’s meaning is not easy, but it’s still allowed, and I think you’ll be happier for the trouble.

Throwback Thursday can be a thing here too!

Who says Throwback Thursday can only be a thing on social media? Not me.

I ran across this picture and thought I would share it. From left to right are my dad, my youngest son, me, my oldest son, and my grandfather. That’s four generations of Lunsford’s! It was either taken in late 1999 or early 2000. All of us are still alive and kicking to this day. There’s even a fifth generation of Lunsford’s now. I’m thinking we need to get together and have a picture taken with the new generation.

Happy birthday but we’ve changed

Thursday was my daughter’s 18th birthday. We had a small family get-together to celebrate.

As I said on my private Facebook account:

She’s the reason I cannot watch any show with meaningful dialogue while she is in the room.

She’s the reason I cannot walk through the house without tripping.

She’s the reason why I feel like I’ve been hit by an F5 tornado when she walks through the front door.

But she’s also one of the reasons I am sober and also not dead so she gets away with the insanity.

She is 18 today.

Happy birthday, ‘lil girl!

I love you!

I owe so much to my daughter. She was at ground zero when I was at my worst. She was also there as I was getting sober and learning to be human again. While everyone around me gave up and left, she didn’t. She stayed by my side. In return, I will always stay by hers. That’s how we roll.

Here are a couple of pictures of us that were taken five years apart. The first was before I got clean. The second is from her birthday party on Thursday. My, my, my how we’ve changed.




Be the hardest person to kill

“Every time you train, train with the motivation and purpose that you will be the hardest person someone ever tries to kill.” – Tim Kennedy

I am relatively certain that I’ve posted that quote before. If so the reason I am thinking about it today is because of a question that was asked in a job interview I had today.

The interviewer asked, “What have you done to train for this position?”

My response was “Besides me already doing a job that is similar and my years of experience doing the job that I am applying for I strength train every day so I don’t get dead.”

Ignore the bad grammar. That was meant to add a little humor to a serious subject. I workout and train every day because if I don’t I could die doing what I do. Apprehending criminals especially in the circumstances I do it in can be dangerous. If I’m not at 100% physically or mentally I could get overpowered and taken down. That’s the reality. So I train hard so that doesn’t happen.

As people that read this blog and might enjoy fitness, you might not work in those conditions. Your motivation may be something entirely different. I want you to think about something though. If you were in a situation where your life depended on your ability to defend yourself would you survive? If you can’t answer that with 100% certainty that you could, train harder. You never know if and when you could be in that type of situation. I want you to win if you are.

Be the hardest person to kill.


Busy Week

Normally I have Mondays and Tuesdays off but this week is so busy I have to start my work week today. Not only do I have a bunch of stuff going on at work I also have an extreme amount of personal stuff going on this week.

At work, we are redoing my CCTV system starting today. I basically have to dismantle my current system and put new DVRs in place. I inherited a mess of wires so this could be problematic. On top of that, there is always criminal behavior that happens and I have to deal with. It seems to be on an upswing so having my CCTV system down at the same time is going to make things difficult.

In my personal life, I have my daughter celebrating her 18th birthday and my youngest grandson celebrating his 3rd birthday. Both are having parties so I better be there. I also have a job interview this week for a part-time position with my local sheriff’s department. I’ve been wanting to get a position with them for a long time now so keep your fingers crossed, please.

Even though this week is busier than most it’s still going to be a good one. I hope yours is as well.

Camp Atterbury Museum Day Trip

The wife and I took our grandson Garrett to the Camp Atterbury Museum today so he could get up close and personal with the military vehicles there. He had a great time. We took a lot of pictures of him with the vehicles but since I don’t have his mother’s permission to publicly post those I will only share this one that I took that I think is cool.

I’m a loser!

I have to admit, I am a loser. A big one.

This was me in 2014.

I was 305 pounds. I was addicted to benzos, alcohol and all things unhealthy.

This is me now.

I weigh in between 150 pounds -153 pounds depending on the day. I am no longer addicted to anything except fun, fitness, and positivity. (five years sober!)

As I said, I am a loser. And I think I’m better off for it.

I love my job but…

I love my job but…

Today and tomorrow are my days off for the week.

Unfortunately, it looks like it is going to be raining on both days so getting lost in the woods or enjoying the outdoors isn’t going to be an option. There are still plenty of fun things to do, though. (and not so fun things to do like clean the house and laundry… ugh)

If anyone needs me I’ll be over here just being me for the next two days. Definitely need some time to do just that.

Looking for a new look.

I was tired of looking at my ugly face every time I went to this site. I’m sure I wasn’t alone. I decided to remove the theme (and my face) and to use GeneratePress until I can find another theme that I like. The trouble is after a couple of hours looking for a new theme I have yet to find one that I like. I’m looking for suggestions so if you have one please comment on this post.

I guess I better say what I am looking for in a theme. I like minimal themes. I need it to look good on both desktop and mobile. I like the colors white, black, gray, and blue. I would like for it to properly support WordPress post formats but it’s not essential.

Let me know. Thanks!